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| Jan. 12th, 2007 | 10:09 pm | ||||||
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i havent written in here in a long time.. it feels too corny to. i feel like a little girl. life is good im at tony and davids house. come back next year and ill putsa lil egg nog in ya face!! |
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| Squeeze an orange, what do you get? Orange Juice...squeeze a Christian, what do you get? cocka shit. | ||||||
| Sep. 20th, 2005 | 09:36 am | ||||||
i read some stupid live journal today and it said that i judge a certian person.. i really dont judge anyone... if theyre being stupid or something im like "theyre being fucken stupid!" just as everyone else does..to me thats not judging..its expressing my feelings..haha.. its like tattoos or msuic or anything else you do..except im nmot gonna write "That girl is a fucken moron" you know? hahaha anyways Ink Slingers Ball was off the chain nigga! me and ashley got our lips pierced and it didnt even hurt.. when ashley was getting hers done my mom said to me "are u gonna get yours done?" and i was just in shock because my mom would enver say that to me..lol..and then she said "i should get my nose pierced" shes suppose to get a tattoo soon..my mom is hardcore now.. i love it..even tho shes psycho and flips out a lot now i still love her... anyways my mom got a T-shirt there..i like it..i bought Tattoo Goo, and some other stuff for tattoos and piercings..then we left..i spent so much money this weekend its not even funny..200 dollars when reljbmiombvtyc right out the door..lol..i dont know where it went..i need to keep track of money..and i think im gonna get the new coheed today too so thats anoher way my money is leaving..lol.. i dont need YOUR forgiveness fuck ass!! i only need Gods forgoveness..or buddha! hahahahah youre wrong i do know you, youre just like a lot of other girls and youre just like those poeple at church..youre all hypocrits! nobody judges you, we simply speak the truth, youre fucken retarded? i dont know if thats the word but yea you know what i mean..hahahha |
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i had sex with a girl now shes gonna tell the pastor and my mom likes me and i love her.. i had a code 5 "Clinger"..im glad shes finally gone now..shes so fuckin annoying its not even funny.. i hate when people think that just because theyre trying to change their life that theyre somehow better than other people.. he has a smelly penis..hahaha i laugh cuz its funny, and so does everyone else... keep your legs closed.. i have to "keep it in my pants" ok well i had an awesome day today and spent like a hundred dollars but it was worth it, especially cuz i got to spend the whole day with my mom.. well goodnight everyone.. i love you all.. :) |
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| Sep. 12th, 2005 | 09:05 pm | ||||||
I'll stay out here all night, it doesn't even matter As long as I can see, into your room and feel Like I'm inside your life, I'll follow you forever Don't cut me down just yet, I'll make things right again Don't close your blinds on me, on me... I will never recover from this I will never believe in this again And I can never go back to the way I used to be before this started The snow won't go away, My nose runs down my face No one sees me here, It doesn't even matter And every step I take, I stay in the same place I can't begin to start again why can't I just be perfect? I will never recover from this I will never believe in this again I can never go back to the way I used to be before this started I will never recover from this I will never believe in this again I can never go back to the way I used to be before this started You see my ghost and you'll never forget it My face is as white as the snow that haunts me Your windows my door and nothing can stop me Sometimes betrayal can make you happy Don't cut me down just yet, I'll make things right again Don't close your blinds on me, on me... I will never recover from this I will never believe in this again I can never go back to the way I used to be before this started I will never recover from this I will never believe in this again I can never go back to the way I used to be before this started |
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| Sep. 5th, 2005 | 09:53 pm | ||||||
i padded the stairs and trimmed and took the carpet upstairs and shit.. Thursday-we worked 6 hours and and i stripped, padded, and trimmed..then we went hunting with ramon and then we stayed down at ramons house and they shot like 8 dove and took the breasts put and cleaned them, then we went to sleep.. Friday-woke up at like 5 after falling asleep at 10 at night and then we headed out to go hunting and we stopped and got some coffee..we worked woth ramon we workd 7 hours and i got paid 50 dollars and im getting paid next friday from les... then we left and headed home..i got home and got ready and then went to the fair with jeremy, muchelle, lizzy and charlie.. Me and Charlie were cool because everyone was staring at us because of our purses! fuck them! anyways i was really tired and i smoe a lot so i fell asleep and then i got home and put a cd in and the fell asleep..saturday i slept in a little bit and then went to rickys sunday i went to church and after we talked to steve, hes fricken cool!! haha..he has good taste in music..ill have to jam withhim one day..then we went to rickys and hung out and we ate and then i took lizzy home cuz i was tired! lol today i woke up at 5 so we could go hunting out in sn bernadino and me ricky and karla got out there, we took auto too...i had to shit like fucken REALLY bad so i went back to the truck and got a carls JR. bag and took a mad shit!! haha it felt good!...the bag was soft tho, its a good thing! then i covered it with the rest of the bag..haha.. then jesse caled and he came down there and then we were leaving and then auto found where i shit! haha great hunting dog found shit! haha.. then we went and ate breakfast at rickys and then we went to circut city and ricky got speakers for his trucka dn jesse got an amp for his and then we went back home and rickys uncle craig had got new heads for his drum kit and called to see if i could tune them for him so we went there and i made them sound ten times better..im good..lol..it makes me feel special when people ask for my advice..lol.. we BBQed and then i came home and now im on here.. im gonna go now i love you all you fucken whores! |
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| Aug. 22nd, 2005 | 06:45 pm | ||||||
ive been hanging out with lizzy a lot and its been a whole lot of fun!!! last sunday i went to church and got my tattoo..and i gotta tell ya getting a tattoo is nothing like people say it is..it hurt but not nearly as bad as how people say it does..it hurt a lot! but yea not as bad.. and there are so many different pains that you feel when you get a tattoo...on my right wing it felt like he was tattooing in my armpit and on the left wing it felt like he was tattooing the back of my arm..and in the middle it fricken hurt cuz of my bone!! and it felt like he was moving up my neck.. and then an hour and 20 minutes later i was done..for that part..lol..i still have to go back for more.. and then i got a little bit emotional after..not because it hurt but because of what i had just done..to most people i was going to get a tattoo..but it was way more than that to me..to me i was getting something that would represent not only me but a part of my dad as well..i got a permanent tattoo..and its an actual tattoo..i just wish my dad was there to see it cuz i KNOW he wouldve took one look and said something about how cool it looked and we wouldve talked for hours about it..and what got to me the most is when i was done and hek said "dad would love that"..i just kept thinking about what he said, and then i went and smoked a cigarette and i couldnt hold back anymore..and im glad that Aaron did it for me...its an awesome feeling to know i have a tattoo just like my dads.. we got back and then lizzy spent the night for like 3 days and then she stayed home a night and then yea... my week has been good, and it went by fast.. some people dont realize that u cant tell other poeple certain stuff, especailly someone so young.. anyways.. i love you lizzy!! |
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| Aug. 3rd, 2005 | 01:30 pm | ||||||
ill start off with last friday.. we were all at scarleths house eating and stuff and Karla and Ricky were talking about going to Mexico.. SO Saturday Morning they told me i should go.so i asked my mo and surprisingly she said yes..so we left at like almost 12.. so were driving, i like driving that far! then we got into Tecate in mexico and wow it was crowded, everything is so close and people just walk out infront of you.. Then we kept driving and we met Griselda, ceci, chris, lorena, and vanessa in valle las palmas! then we went down the dirt road to a crnival thing we hung out there the whole day..its so fun there, when we got there we went and saw the cock fighting...that shit is crazy! but its funny then we walked around..al these mexicans there were drunk.. i thought it was gonna be all awkward there, like everyone was gonan be all mean and shit but they were all drunk and cool so that was good.. then we went to chris' grandparents house to sleep..and then in the morning everyone woke up and got ready and we headed to ensanada. we stopped off at the beach and i got a marlboro hat and i got lizzy a little clay man holding his penis and balls and he was peeing..it smelled like shit water..but it was cool just cuz we were out somewhere far from home.. then we left and we kept driving to ensanada and we went to these little stands and got tacos and then we walked around all these little places so that we could shop...ricky bought a switchblade knife and a blanket..Karla got a shirt and everyone else got what they wanted..these mexicans tried to get me and ricky to buy a pipe..but that wasnt happening..then it was time to go so we headed home through TJ..Griseldas mom got out at a redlight and went shopping and we pulled over and then a bus came right behind us and started honking its gorn real loud and i stuck my head out the window looking around like i didnt know where it was coming from and they looked at me wierd and then the bus went by us and they flipped us off! then we got on the frreway through the border and there was so many mexicans selling stuff cuz all the traffic is just stopped for like a mile and a half..but it was funny..then we finally got through and we headed home..we got to temecula and we ate and the soda tastes so different out here then it does in mexico.. then we dropped off Griselda and Vanessa and then ricky and karla took me home and now im back in the usa it sux, i like it out there..anyways i havent been doing anything just hanging ut with lizzy my best friend! and im gonna paint my room today!! have a good day everyone!! P.S. GLASSJAW ROCKS!! |
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| Jul. 15th, 2005 | 01:18 pm | ||||||
first he came here and then we fixed beckys truck and tthen her truck wouldnt start so we stole karlas old battery from her crashed car in her mom and dads backyard, it was some mission inpossible shit.. then we got it running.. then i went to rickys and we..well I watched the longest yard cuz they fell asleep.. then i went in the living room and watched kicking and screaming with will ferrell..it was hilarious!...then it was time to wake ricky up..so i mad coffee and got everything ready and then he took me home. i wish lizzy was home, then id have my best friend to hang out with and then i could cuddle and be close to her!!! i love that girl.. i dont know what id do without her.."theres no other i can turn to"...shes one of the best things that has happened to me in my entire life..i thank God for putting her there..its wierd when i think about it..me and her were just friends 4 years ago..we went to school with eachother and then we staretd hanging out more, not just us but yea..and then we kissed, bad idea considering the situation, but not really..then a couple years later its like we click with eachother and we just wanna talk to eachother on the phone and be with eachother all the time..and we slowly but surely bacame the best of friends..and couldnt imagine anything so perfect..i love you lizzy!!! well thats all, i love you all..youre in my prayers.. |
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| Jul. 13th, 2005 | 11:04 am | ||||||
hector and candice came and picked me up and then we left here at like 3:00 in the after noon i think..we headed out to go meet Montana but he was gonna be late so we went to Charlie Browns and ate. i got this sandwich thing with like 3 differnet kinds of meats but i couldnt eat the other half cuz it felt like all the meat was gonan fall through from the BBQ sauce.. so after that we looked around and then went and sat in the car to wait for Montana. so he calls and tells us where to meet him..so we get to that spot and we keep driving and then Montana and his dad pull out and we let them get infront since they knew where theyre going.. so we finally get there and you can tell where it is cuz ll the band kids are standing out in the front, everyone looks alike.lol.. we get hectors head and guitars out and we start taking them in so we get in and then the guy takes us sround the back..so we get the stuff put down and then we went and sat down with Mario Joey Robert and some other people... during this one band playing the something happened with the whole system thing so they brought ice to cool it down..cuz it had a fan so the fan would suck cool air in to it..so it finally came back on and they continued playing.. Dreams of Reality got up there and theyre not bad, i actually like them..they put on a good show.. then it was time for Farewell Forever to go up there so i went and got heks guitar and some water and then we caried it all up there and then i went and sat back down with candice..so they were about ready to play and i went down there to watch and it was me, some other guy, ivan, and robert on the floor..that was gay.. so they started playing and the head the Mario was playing with was all fucked up and it was hurting peoples ears the whole time they played..it was a shitty Venue but i think they were good..El Dorado was actually better than that place.. so then we loaded up everything and joey was selling their EPs but nobody would buy them so he told me 2 for 7 dollars so i said ok..anything to help out my brothers band..so i bought 2 and then daniel came by me and i took his bands EP out of his hand and then i gave him three dollars for it..lol..just to help support them.. then we left and they took me home and i came home got on myspace and then got off and went to sleep.. i think thats all, i love you all!! have a great day!! |
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| Jul. 6th, 2005 | 04:44 pm | ||||||
ive been hangnig out with lizzy and ricky a lot, its awesome! i love those 2! things got funny at becka and lizzys house..it was nice hanging out with all of us again..michelle, becka, lizzy, and me...thankx for holding my hair back becka, haha..or trying to..lol..and thankx to ashley for walking with me and becka too..and michelle for hugging me, i miss her! and lizzy thank for burning me..haha, i love it!.. on monday me and lizzy hung out with everyone at logans house, im glad i have a friend that actually likes my friends..logan isnt bad, people just judge too quikly..anyways they had some bad ass fireworks and some mexican M80s that were loud as hell! and we made bomb things with picolo petes...it was great, and i was practicing my willies on the bike, im lame...but im good at it! after that liz came over and then i took her home with nenas car, i didnt take her home in my trucks but i wish i couldve..lol.. well i think thats it, there should be a day of taco bell and a movie with the 4 of us ;)(hint hint) |
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<center>im writign in here because i want to ok?!!?
YAAAAAYYYAAAAAAAAA!!!! <i>All my X's live with hexes. This is why I hang Myself with jealousy upon a fencepost half mast. Fashion: war between <b>The guilty and the guilty and the guilty and the guilty And the teen.</b> Not throwing stones at you anymore. Your name's in lights and I don't wonder Anymore... anymore</i> <i>We might as well retire. <b>To the drawer where all used things resign...</b> Between my finger and the blade, right before I let the used resign..... You might lose the one you choose. You might lose who won you times ten...</i> <i><b>When people whisper it makes her nervous...</b> We are the most impassioned ugly people...</i> <i><b>Yeah he's a winner, He's a goddamn sinner...</b> I walk around with my horns out now, But it's not easy to know.. <b>How can you heal? If you don't ease back the blame. Knowing you're right, won't you heal?<i?</b> <i><b>You like to carry my heart In a bag thats broken.</b> You're asking when do I stop? When the bottle's empty. Blacker than my father's soul, drunk enough to raise us all.... Lead with your need as god descends. Cold in the ground. What gets me this down? The smell of magnesium, the smile of a clown... <b>I want to drink you, scare you, f*ck you and film you.</b></i> <i>Me, me, me. Grief, grief, grief. Beat the heat. Grunt fuck. Grin fuck. <b>Push her in the snow fuck.</b> The dope fiend splashes gash like a nailbomb.</i> <i>Contrary to what you believe We oscillate and vary speed. The food in jail is sulphury. How do inuits spell relief? Summer's trudging closer and a flurry of white as well. It's the heart of nuclear winter and I'm scared as hell.</i> <i><b>Here's where the train ride ends. Screaming, "is this your decision?" We were the best of friends, I'll go nowhere.</b> "Life is such a ball I run the world from city hall" And I own you all... <b>And we see first, second behind my heart is my mind Third behind my mind is my body. Fourth behind my body is my soul And my heart stays in the lead.</b></i> <i>Put the needle to the record, And hit me with your style, Soon enough I'll, Learn to unload my mouth. Can you feel it's getting blacker, The vibe up in this place When I displaced, What made me turn my face... <b>It was quite a dirty habit, When the last thing I do, Has a swine slewn, Down martyr avenue. Am I driftwood or hosana? A knee-deep in disease. I'm the body Laid anonymously </b> On the beach girl On the beach. <b>Denial is a river in Egypt. Division is a reunion in the south. Soon enough I'll learn to... Denial is a river in Egypt Allusive as the communion in my mouth. Soon enough I'll learn to...</b></i> thats just the best band ever with the best lyrics!!! and im going to see them and i dont care what i ahve to do to get there!!! i love you lizzy!! |
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| Jun. 20th, 2005 | 11:45 am | ||||||
9th Grade-i dont really remember feeling different emotions..just a couple..lol..like madness, being scared, i didnt really have a lot of friends..just michelle and kristina..my dad was getting sicker tho..Hector basically moved out..thats all i really remember.. 10th Grade-this year was going good..and then i kissed liz..and looking back on that i feel that that was funny, not because people got hurt but because of the stupidest shit i said!! i cant believe i said a lot of that stuff! lol..things were rocky between me and Kristina but eventually we..well i got over it..then around march or may i went to Bishop for the weekend with Alex, and then when i came home my dad was in the hospital..it didnt realy hit me that he was really sick cuz he always went to the hospital if he felt he wanted to..but then being in the hospital for so long, i guess it made me think a little bit more, i started writing music..and one fo the first songs i ever wrote was about my dad..and then June 4th 2003 my dad had passed away..i didnt cry, i didnt know what to think..i didnt know how to feel..happy because hes not suffering or pain cuz i wasnt gonna see ihm again?...i got really depressed and didnt care about anything but my friend..i could give a fuck less about family after that..i stoppped going to school the last week or 2 left of school..i broke up with kristina and regretted it in the summer.. 11th Grade-got back with Kristina and i loved her..i think..our relationship never was the same it got worse...well it got worse after aboiut 3 months of being together..since we broke up..i got kicked out of littlerock so i started going to desert sands..me kris liz and becka all got really close and we were hanging out a lot..me and becka ended up getting closer than kristina thought, she always had it out for lizzy..then summer was ending and kris caught us...once again we stayed together..and i found happiness within myself and with God..i got baptized..first time in 17 years...i was so involved in God and my life was going really good..i loved my family very much and i started going to church again..i was so into it..somewhere along this year i started cutting myself..i couldnt handle the pain of everything..i didnt do it again after tho.. 12th Grade-me and Kris werent doing so good and then becka ratted me out..haha..and i lied for about six months about everything..i dont really know why i lied but i did..i guess it would have been better if i didnt cuz then all these people wouldnt have been hurt but i dont really think before i do stuff so yea..then i finally told kris about it all and our relationship was awesome for about 3 days..i felt the butterflies..too bad she didnt..our relationship got worse and she acted like a total psyco..i apologized to becka and michelle..so i started talking to them a little bit again..after that i started cutting myself hoping id get the attention i needed, little did i know i wouldnt get it from the person i wanted it from..i stareted getting worse with it..now i have a bunch of scars on my arm..oh well..i was such an emotional kid this year, i couldnt handle a lot of what was going on, i missed my brother and my dad and i didnt want to do anything..and then me and kristina broke up..but before that i spent days and nights with them..it was great and made me realize i was better off without her..i really cant talk about school that much, nothing happens when im there, im only there for an hour...ive fallen away from God but Gloria inspires me to want to be mroe into him again..i hate the person ive become, because its not the person i can live with..i couldnt cry for the longest time after me and kristina broke up, it was lik all my emotions were with her...i dont know where im going with all this..maybe this is just a reason to talk about everything cuz i cant in person..but ill never foret how much lizzy was there for me through all this, through this whole year..and ill never forget about how much Kristina was there for me..i felt so comfortable around her and i could cry and cry with her for hours about missing my dad or missing hector, shes psycho but at times can be a good friend, not always...i just want to thank you both..but thank you lizzy for sticking with me through this whole year...i love you so much!!!!!!!!!! this year was the best because of you Elizabeth Dawn Norris..i cant thank you enough.. |
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| Jun. 13th, 2005 | 10:16 am | ||||||
Friday:i woke up and mest around on the comp and then started gettign ready to go meet Carmen...so then we were all ready and me nena gloria and cody and chloe went to my school and i turned in homework and then we left to the mal..we all walked in together and i called Carmen to ask her where she was at and then she popped and..she met all them cuz they wouldnt go the way they had to go..lol..Then we went into the movies and then i met Margaret and Jennifer..we saw Lords Of Dogtown..it was a really good movie..Then we got out and we went and at..they had Del Taco..YUCK!!..and i went to Subway!! Then we were all done and we just sat there talking and then we started walking around and then we went over by dillards so they could say bye to Margaret cuz she had to leave...Then we went over by that shoe place and sat in the coca cola area thing..and then i claed ricky and asked if he could pick me u so he said me him by the bathrooms so we did...and then Carmen and Jen had to leave so we walked them out and i gave her a hug and then they left.. Saturday:hung out with Ricky all day.. Sunday: i WAS gonna go to church but then Hek called and asked if i wanted to swim.so i said yea and then i called liz and asked her if she wanted to go..so of course she said yes..then hek got there and before he came i was crying and then he got here and it was a goiod thing too cuz he held me while i cried..great brother..then we left to get lizzy and then to rickys so i could get my swim shorts.. then we went to heks and we were inside talking and stuff..i had like 2 shots of that jiegermiester(i have NO clue how to spell it!!) and then a Margarita..i think she loaded it with tequila..candice tried to kill me with it probably..lol..and then we went swimming and then we came and in we were watching a movie and i fell asleep! then i wpke up and Bill was home anmd we were all outside cooking the steaks and then we all ate and then we all went swimming except liz cuz she was col..but thats ok..i love her! then we dropped liz off and then they dropped me off! so thats about everything...im gonna go be bored a little bit more..i love you all.. |
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| Jun. 9th, 2005 | 09:07 am | ||||||
Friday:we woke up and went fishing...we were fishing for like the whole time, and then Frank and Kareen and thair kids got there and they took everyone on the tube but i didnt go cuz i had a head ache so me and ricky went fishing..then we came back and ate dinner and we all fished again..then it was time to sleep, this time me, Karla and Ricky slept out on the boat deck outside, after we had some southern comfort, haha... Saturday:we woke up and ate breakfast and i jumped in the water cuz i was freakin Hot! so i went swimming for like 15 minutes..then i got out and we were moving to a different spo of the lake...so Rhonda, Amber, and Frank decided to go to get more bait and soda and stuff for us and they would meet us out there..so tha didnt work out cuz we couldnt find eachother..so then after about 2 and a half hours we finally found them and we headed out to the new spot..so Frank could beach his boat cuz of all the rocks so he stayed for dinner, but me and ricky went off somewhere else and we were fishing..we got abck late and ate later than everyone else but thats ok..then me, Ricky, Rick, Dick, Rhonda, Paul, Karla, Jaime, Jennifer, and Taylor were all out on the back deck thing fishing and we had rickys glow stick on a fishing pole and throwing it in the water and i think the fish were attracted to it cuz we were all catching fish like nothing..everytime we threw the it back in we automatically got a fish..it was awesome!! so then me and ricky went to the front and had our last southern comfort..cuz it wa sour last night there...:(..we slept on top of the house boat this time with paul, Amber, and Karla.. Sunday:we all have a last swim..we have our last fishing time, and we all head out at 12:00 and its a good thing too cuz it had to be back by 4 and it took us 3 hours to get back to the dock, so then wew all went to the market againa one last time, i got new key clip with a knife on it but my mom took from me cuz she wanted it..lol..then paul went and filled up the boat and we all unloaded it and then we were off! back home..ugh!...we head out and we then rick gets service on his phone and a message from my mom is on there..so i call her back and nena answers the phone..and she asks if im alright and i said yes and then my mom gets on the phone and says are you alright and im like yes..so then she told me to call her when i got back so im thinking somehtings wrong cuz they both ask me if im alright..so we stop at Whiskey Petes and eat at the buffet and i was gonna buy a pack of cigarettes from the machine just cuz it was from the machine but i didnt want to waste my money..so then we head out and im putting on all my god cds that everyone would like which was like 3 but it got us home..so we finalyl get home at like 10:30 and my mom calls and says becky was ina bad car accident and aaron fell asleep at the wheel and they flipped the van...so my heart dropped and of course parents dont tell you all the details...so i asked if she was alright and she said yes and she was at the finch concert, i guess aaron over corrected after he wpke up and they flipped by some railroad tracks and they all got out and becky said her foot was on the dashboard and in the windshield, so by the grace of God they all got out without a scracth on them..so thank God for that..the accident looks bad too cuz the side door that slides is like peeled open at the top, its scary..but yes shes alright andthats good..we all went to sleep and i woke up monday mring at 4 to go home..then i got here and i fell asleep and woke up at like 10. nothing too exciting has been going on..i hung out with lizzy yesterday and we went for a walk, and we had a really good talk..and then we hung out and watched Radio and yes and then we started watching Chapelles show! thats a great show!..well i think thats about it for me! Carmen is coming out here friday, that should be fun..i hope it is..but yes im out! i love you all! |
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| May. 20th, 2005 | 12:00 am | ||||||
theGREATERsin10 (11:59:21 PM): in the backyard of the elephant graveyard LongTermMisery (11:59:29 PM): haha ok!! theGREATERsin10 (11:59:35 PM): lol LongTermMisery (11:59:38 PM): but...im not really sure where that it.. LongTermMisery (11:59:39 PM): lol theGREATERsin10 (11:59:50 PM): lol theGREATERsin10 (11:59:58 PM): its by pride rock LongTermMisery (12:00:13 AM): oooh ok theGREATERsin10 (12:00:16 AM): yes LongTermMisery (12:00:32 AM): lol i thought it was by the water hole theGREATERsin10 (12:00:43 AM): lol LongTermMisery (12:00:58 AM): lol theGREATERsin10 (12:01:06 AM): yea but pride rock is where they live, and thats where it is LongTermMisery (12:01:13 AM): yes theGREATERsin10 (12:01:16 AM): in that village theGREATERsin10 (12:01:17 AM): lol LongTermMisery (12:01:19 AM): lol LongTermMisery (12:01:22 AM): ok... lol LongTermMisery (12:01:23 AM): haha theGREATERsin10 (12:01:32 AM): yesss so last night i spent the night at Heks and then this morning we woke up and went to see STAR WARS!! it was great but i was getting mad at it! but in the end it all comes together and it awesome! yes! then me hek and Ed went to eds moms house and then we went and worked on this house and then we went back to heks and then hek took me home.. cheating isnt ALL physical!! "what you dont tell your boyfriend or girlfriend IS cheating". so its cheating biotch! yea!! i want to get a light saber! this guy and a lot more people were dressed up and stuff it was cool..i wore my star wars yoda T-shirt!!yesSSS!! so i think thats all..i love you 3!!XOXOXO<3 |
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| May. 17th, 2005 | 10:28 pm | ||||||
1. JESUS!! 2. FAMILY!(friends, theyre considered my family cuz we are loyal to eachother) 3. my dad 4. my brother Hector 5. my CDs 6. sleeping with my friends(not like that idiot) 7. hugs 8. kisses 9. stretching my ears bigger 10. buying neew stuff 11. going to concerts 12. myspace.com 13. hanging out with farewell forever TWELVE MOVIES: (not in any order) 1. Fightclub 2. Snatch 3. the mexican 4. oceans 11 5. oceans 12 6. orange county 7. the notebook 8. LORD OF THE RINGS! 9. STAR WARS! 10. Blue Collar 11. Ruch Hour 12. Anchorman ELEVEN GOOD BANDS: (currently listening to & not in any order) 1. FAREWELL FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!! 2. Underoath 3. Circa Survive 4. the mars volta 5. denver harbor 6. the starting line 7. Anberlin 8. GLASSJAW!! 9. Finch! 10. he is legend! 11. Coheed and Cambria TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU: 1. im addicted to strecthing my ears! 2. i care SO much about my family and i dont like to see them hurting 3. to me best friend are better than girlfriends 4. i am a jealous guy but only if i have reasons to be 5. right now Farewell Forever is my all time favorite band!! 6. i believe the label "EMO" is retarded 7. ive liked this certain girl for over a year now;) 8. i do have feelings and they are hurt when you call me a loser 9. i give awesome advice! i think i get if from ym mom 10. "fuck you" doesnt hurt me :) NINE GOOD FRIENDS: (no order) 1. lizzy 2. Ricky 3. becka 4. michelle 5. 57 6. 5473 7. 457367 8. 7367 9. 73657 EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS: 1. Mountain Dew 2. Taco Bell 3. Pizza 4. Nenas chicken enchiladas! 5. my moms cooking 6. pina coladas! 7. Pepsi 8. Taco Snacks! SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY: 1. shoes 2. earrings 3. shirt 4. pants 5. socks 6. deoderant 7. boxers SIX THINGS THAT YOU HATE: 1. school 2. being alone 3. not having a job 4. not having my friends by me all the time 5. girlfriends that cheat on me with a couple of people she didnt even know! 6. i dont really hate anyone..i cant..its not my place to hate! i hate what people do FIVE THINGS YOU DO DAILY: 1. drink soda 2. eat 3. sleep 4. listen to music 5. pray FOUR TELEVISION SHOWS YOU WATCH: 1. i 2. dont 3. watch 4. TV THREE THINGS YOU WANT: 1. the "pain" in my eyes to go away 2. to get closer to God 3. to not be a loser.. TWO THINGS YOU SAY OFTEN: 1. "i love you lizzy" 2. "motha fruka!" ONE PERSON YOU COULD SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH: 1. Lizzy yea so today i went to school and then i sat outdside and talk to Ashley Mauldon and her sister Chelsea for like an hour and then Hek picked me up, and we went out to eat and then to get garrette and then candice and then we went back to Heks and then i came home and went to rickys then went to logans later and then now im here talking to lizzy, candiss, and brittany..so yea i love you 3!!XOXOXO<3 |
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| May. 16th, 2005 | 11:42 pm | ||||||
so yes the days have been good i guess..i started painting and i just got lazy..lol.. gloria got 200 dollars from my uncle and then she bought me a belt and a shirt, THANKX gloria! i gotta go to school tomorrow and take a test so i have to be up early! GRRR!! so my uncle found a dirt bike for a grand and hes gonna try and talk the guy down to 500 and if he gets it im gonan fix it u and sell it to buy or lift a truck..whichever is cheaper..lol..liz knows what im talkin about! its a 2001 YZ 250 so it should be worth a lot..but thats a real MAYBE not for sure situation so im not gonna get my hopes up! i think HEK is gonna pic me up from school tomorrow and then i gotta go to rickys and then take down his fence.. i hung out wth lizzy today, it was great and then ricky came later and then they left and now im on here..i love you 3!!XOXOXO<3 |
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| May. 14th, 2005 | 12:15 am | ||||||
I havent been doing anything that much just getting new cds from the internet and hanging out.. i talk to a lot more people now..its wierd..like i talk to Candiss Nute now. She still acts the same. and she has the same laugh. i talk to Tiffany Bull now.she wants me to play drums for youth group, and i want to but i wanna get better. maybe when i take those lessons ill start playing. i hang out with Hek a lot more..its great..i never new how much relationships keep you from your family and im so stupid for not keeping them closer..i think a lot of people think aboutit after they arent ion one anymore.. I had to go to school yesterday to take a test at 9 in the morning and i DID NOT want tp be up at that time..So i got there, got bored, had a couple anger management sessions before i got in there.. Got out and i was gonan go eat lunch with nena but i called hek and he said that him and Bill were gonna go down to candices moms work cuz her car broke down so we went to get it and then we got back from there and then... Mario called and said that they were gonna go to the studio...SO the Farewell Forever EP is Finally done..there was one before this and that was suppose to be the final one but the guy that mixed the cd Hector thought he couldve mixed it better so Me,Hek, Montana, Mario, and Joey were all there and sitting around talking and listening to the EP figuring out what they wanted to do with it..So they turned up the vocals and screams and i think joeys guitar..and on "Jot This Down" Montana said he wanted the drums to fade into the song and its a good thing he had that idea cuz it sounds awesome! So then we left there after like 2 hours and we went to Marios house to see the artwork for the cd but his comp. was being dumb so me and hek left and then he took me home and i burned the cd and he left.. Today i did homework and then becky took me to school and Lizzy came too!! yes i love her.. Then Becky dropped us off at ChuckEheese for garrettes birthday and when we go there Bill stood up and gave us the bull horns! like a rockstar it was funny..hes my homie! hes one funny mother fucker!! Then we played games with chloe and matt spent 5 dollars and got a lot of tickets.. Then we sang happy birthday and then we said goodbye and when i was leaving Ed and lauretta were sitting there and i went and kissed Ed on the cheek and said bye and lauretta laughed..and when we were playing games lauretta said "hit the game tommy" so i was bumping it so the tokens would fall..then Ed came and we were both doing it and Bill was busting up laughing like real far away!... SO we left there and me nena matt chloe anmd lizzy came back here and we all sat around and then they started watching Donnie Darko out in the living room so went out there and watched some of it and then lizzys mom came and she left now im on here..so im gonna go now..i love you 3..XOXOXO<3 |
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